Yeah I still remember the day as as if
it was yesterday.
 
I think I was, I just like felt this
sense of like numbness, and just being
like, 'I can't believe it.' 

Like is this, is real?  
Like I found out in lunch that

everyone got their letter uh, and then I
had to, like, sit through period five, get
the bus home.

I remember being still in
my pajamas at home very early morning no

one else was awake and I rushed to the
living room to turn my laptop on.

UCAS crashed for about an hour and a
half. I went into school the morning of
the results day.

I was absolutely adamant
that I wouldn't go anywhere in my email

until I got home,
um ,that didn't quite work out. 

I didn't always want to come to Oxford,
initially I wanted to study

in London so I could be close to home.
And um, like see my little brother my

little sister go off and stuff just be
with my mum 

so I convinced anyone I'm not
getting in. So I just like opened it

like prepared to open it, and prepared, like,
when I hadn't got it and then

I did.
It wasn't more that I thought that I

wouldn't you know enjoy oxford or fit in,
it was what I just didn't think I was

good enough I didn't think that I was
clever enough

and I just didn't really believe in
myself.

The email was from my college, um it was
from Pembroke College saying

good news we'd like to take you.
I felt very overwhelmed. I got my
offer.

I think in the beginning I was
definitely really emotional because of

the anticipation waiting for UCAS to
finally be back on track and then when

that email finally arrived it was a bit
of like a oh oh so that's it. I think it

took me still a couple minutes before I
like went downstairs.

I opened it and yeah then the first
thing I pulled out was fees and funding

information, and I thought it'd be really
cruel if they sent me that. And then I

did get in because I was surrounded by
my best friends. They immediately rugby

tackled me into a massive hug as soon as
I said I got into oxford. And yeah it was

just a really lovely way to find out. 
I think my mum cried and then my nan

was on the phone and she cried and my
dad was just really proud. And then

yeah I was just like, oh well what's that
about go on it's just university. 

but yeah yeah they're all crying which
seems to be their natural response to

any good news.
They were very, very happy I think they

jumped up here in excitement
it really inspired me to be like, you

know, 'I've got to take my A Levels
really seriously' and, you know, I've

really got to like find my passion and
find, you know, what interests me.